AFTERTHOUGHT

You remember back to the hole in the ground with the rabbit in chapter one? The next time someone tries this to murder or come after me. I think I am going to crawl into the hole with the rabbit, and proudly proclaim the part they call manhood on a man still lives. Before anyone else tries to determine if were all nuts or not.

Being distant relatives of people on both sides of the ocean long ago. This book has been very hard to write about because it happened so long ago. And my life since then has been so hard on me, because of tragedies in my personal life and other people who only seem to want to destroy my life as I have known, and along with it, the truth. After living such a life as I have had. I have seen my vision of the future come true. Some involving our country in three wars and the death of a distant relative; also after reporting crimes to the police department by calling them in for over ten years. The only consolation I received was, one day I heard a knock on my door. When I opened it there was a young man who I had turned in for breaking a large plate glass window. It must have been the last strike against him that people were going to put up with, for soon after he was put away in a correctional facility for youth. He had came back to apologize and tell me he was changed. Years later after he had grown up and been released.

I do wonder why the constitution is not being obeyed by the people of this country. When I could think of simple solutions plaguing this country and the solutions the government comes up with usually prefers some segment of the population or another. I disagree with it at times. When I lost my choice of life and choice of women. I could have had and lost because of my breakdown and being forced from work.

My memory took over thirty years to gain back the memory I now possess. I wonder why isn't the truth being told to our youth in today's world. That people whose only crime was to be hurt and want women to much are beaten mentally. Because life as we have in this country is not good enough. And why isn't the truth being told that people are deliberately beaten and put through hell by being made crazy because of sexual preferences or choice, or differences in race or religion. In my case, I was hurt after my breakdown a second time without knowledge of why. When I was trying so hard. And was taken advantage of because of my natural instinct. I suppose we who have been done wrongly in this country try to find allies perhaps in a church or even move to where people are alike or where people respect other peoples lives. And will help. You might meet people who respect your opinion. And to look for a woman. These are the only things a person can do. Try to educate yourself some and gain back some of the respect you have lost.

I do hope this book offers some encouragement and hope and courage to those without hope. Only by being brave and doing the right things for others as well as ourselves can we go on in life.

I would like to thank the U.S. government for supporting me over the years. I realize my life wouldn't have been possible without them. I realize they are very busy most of the time. But I think a branch of the government should be set up to handle privacy rights issues in every state. So people who are threatened because of race or sexual preferences or religion have somewhere to turn to that stands for the Constitution. I believe something should be done for victims of crime and life itself. This book was also dedicated to the veterans of the Vietnam war and to the veterans of every war, since the beginning of time. Can we stop what we can not win against, and be treated as decent human beings afterwards for life's sake itself and remain capable of fighting, even if it means just saving life itself. It's up to you, the American people, if war comes and we are called on can we remain brave enough and smart enough for the next time we have to face the unknown.

My religious experience: Because I had a breakdown once, destroying my life completely. A second time my mind was almost destroyed at work. The third time I was hit by narcotics. Because of living through what I have in life, I write the following: It is He (God) who stood beside me when no one else was there.

Due to my personal experience while sleeping and walking around in a semi-conscious state and in pain day and night unable to wake, my life seemed to run parallel with verses in the Bible. Also the angel cloud, the whirlwind, the high kick, the mushroom shaped cloud, seeing these things I realized God is for real and he gave me a perfect ending to my book.

My hopes for the future, a perfect woman, and a word for those brave enough to go on. The future history of this country and the world remains to be seen. Not only what happens in China in the next twenty-five years. But, can the people learn to live in peace with each other and learn to accept each other not only globally, but at home, as well I believe it is within the capabilities of the human mind to end the threat of nuclear destruction forever. And the other countries who threaten peace can be dealt with more effectively and quickly, so we do not wind up killing each other or our grandchildren, whatever country we are from.