We talked a little more, and Monitor One explained it again. I was about to lift out of my body and actually become an energy being!
I stepped out of the SEND and found myself inside a dark-tinted bubble, which obviously protected me. The bubble seemed to vibrate at a thought! Outside I could see bright spots. Tons of them. It was hard to understand how big they were, or how far away they were, or really anything about them other then the fact that they were there. I felt a little dizzy, kind of light-headed, and I could 'feel' other presences, other minds, around me.
...and then I was a part of everything I could see or feel. I actually felt myself, or my energy, “dissolve” out of my physical body.. and I became a being of light! I “knew” I was a tiny point of light that glowed without giving off heat. I felt comfort without physical sensation. I began 'noticing' others were near me. Not people, ideas. Stories. Moving.. pictures. Certain nearby influences began to focus, and I struggled to understand that they were thoughts... The Beings of Light! They softly 'spoke' inside me, guiding understanding, expanding my imagination, gently massaging my senses even as I discovered them... Oh! I had senses I never dreamed were possible! Delight! Distances! Connections – to everything! As though I floated in a universe of information instantly available to the tiniest detail. There was no time. Everything that ever happened anywhere in the universe was happening right at that moment! And I was there!
I tried to be more aware of the energy around me. Not all of it was alive. Some was,... food, I guess. I looked at my physical surroundings and discovered I was on a planet of nearly solid rock, much of it molten. The temperature here had to be in the hundreds or maybe thousands of degrees. Near me there were energy points, beings, floating all around. Communication was not necessary. There were no questions. I “Knew.” These were unimaginably advanced beings whose thoughts and concepts I could never hope to understand. To them I am less than an ant,.. an amoeba,.. less. Yet they took the time to assemble here, around this “Circle of fire,” and allow a lowly Earther to enjoy their... amazing-ness. Energy from everywhere.. elevated, educated,... increased me. I felt full. Looking back (and considering at the time I was an energy being, a being of light), the best term I can use here,.. is “I glowed.” If you've never glowed, let me tell ya, glowing is good.
...And then at one certain point, I understood. I understood them, their planet of origin, their entire story of evolution. They began like us, but developed their minds to a point where they outgrew the physical world and could exist as the energy of their own thoughts! Their minds could merge together into one, or explore absolute independence to the point of an empty universe for each... (This is all very hard to write..) They live in near omniscience.
The beings that I “felt” now surrounded me, began to communicate. They soothed me at first. (I was apparently pretty excited.) When I had calmed down I felt protected. I felt,.. um,. their concern for me. Then finally, I kind of grabbed myself by the bootstraps, and started trying to be intelligent, organized,.. not scatterbrained.
They laughed at that! I could feel it! That's what finally broke the silence around me and allowed me to be part of the situation. Then they, kind of in a chorus of emotions and voices, began welcoming me to what they called their favorite resort. Some resort! Well, for a human... not so much,.. but it's amazing how wonderful it all felt to be there.. in that form! The energy people give off an incredible friendship energy! It could be described as sort of love, but it wasn't... it was pure friendship... and acceptance. They made it clear that they were much enjoying simply having my energy there among them, and they understood, and were flattered and delighted, that I enjoyed theirs.
It was an amazing experience! We didn't actually carry on a conversation. We didn't have to. I had no idea how long I had been there. At the right moment, somehow we all understood it was over. We parted slowly, with them again helping me adjust, this time to becoming a part of the tiny physical world I'd left inside that tinted bubble. When I was again standing in it, I took one step backward and bumped into Mre in the SportJumper. I felt very small... and even a little sad, but only for a moment. Monitor One touched my arm, and I understood that he was happy for me. Without saying a word, he then 'evaporated' into thin air right there in Mre's SportJumper. (I didn't know he could do that.)
Duh was there when I returned, too. After a short attempt at sharing the experience, I gave up, and instead he, Mre and I smoked a whole pile of outlook and laughed about me sitting with fires around a circle of rocks!
There is no way to actually describe being with the energy race. What I have just written barely touches the edges of what happened. It is an experience I will never, ever forget. Not a lot of physical beings have ever visited the energy races. My gratitude to them exceeds anything I can write here. I know they can understand that. I know that they will be with us during our transition into a caring race. And I know that with their help, we will, finally, learn to care.
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