From “Chance” (chapter 6)

Through the darkest storms of life I felt so trapped by my own embellishment of guilt and shame that I did not deserve another door, or so I thought. Believe me I did not wake up one day to feel free and sure God had many more doors and wonderful surprises for me, it took work. What is “work”? To some it is an act of performing a service not particularly cared for. Although to others it defines them and creates their individuality. Some people live for their “jobs” and to others it is a means to survival. Well however you feel about work it needs to be done. As a yard needs gardening and we all have to eat whether one loves gardening or cooking.

The work begins when we realize that we are worth it. This does not mean we arrogant, boastful, conceited, etc. but instead means we can and will achieve our victory, this is a process and not an overnight awakening but instead years of re-programming our thinking to better ourselves inside and out. There were times when in my life I counted the chances that God gave me, and felt like the cat with nine lives that was sure to run out of luck anytime soon. Thank God I changed that Mentality.

There were many times in my life that I felt sure I was about to die, and another chance saved me. One example was the day that I had my tires replaced on my car and I was driving home and noticed the traffic in front of me shifted lanes suddenly. In a moment’s time I saw why they all moved to the left lane as a huge landscaping truck completely broke down in the high speed lane with all of its equipment all over the road. Well my first instinct was to slam on my breaks but I knew I wouldn’t make it and end up hitting this malfunction in front of me. Then all of a sudden another force seemed to take over grab the wheel and step on the gas and take me into safety into the other lane just in time. It was all within a split second in time and really was not me at all but a higher force “God” or “Angels” watching over me and taking the wheel when I was in shock. This was truly “unbelievable” and so “breathtaking”. Another instance I was choking at my boyfriend’s house and he had fallen fast asleep and would not wake up. I tugged him but at that point could not even speak because my breath had eluded me. Well thank God “Ruby” the black Lab was observing the struggle, and my attempts to wake up “John” and saw I was running out of time. I tried to give myself the Heimlich maneuver through pushing my body against the sink and hoping to breathe again. Then, all of a sudden I prayed for help, and that dog came charging to me and pounced as hard as he could on my chest area and I was able to breathe again. It was a complete miracle, and yes “Ruby” received a nice steak the following day. To this day forward I have a brand new respect for dogs.

Chance to me is like choice. When we do not like what we see then we can choose again. We need to focus and remember the mind set that there is so many infinite channels that will help us along our way, and we need not get caught up in the channel we are watching. Life is like a garden so brilliant and beautiful. I moved into a place where I cleaned up the exterior and new plants took form out of the blue that I never even purchased, and that was cool. Life forms itself without our control in a way so pristine and clear and we must remember to trust that. For a plant or tree to grow it must have water and sunlight. For us to grow and accept chance we too require certain elements. There is trust, and also there is openness to see what is behind curtain number two. Do you remember the show, “Let’s make a Deal”? Well this is your life and you need to remember there are even better prizes aside from Donkeys behind the curtains. Know that many curtains, doors, and windows await the child within. I say this because a certain part of us believes but our adult minds tend to contradict this truth. Some people are looking for statistics and proof of further chances but I strongly believe and am living proof that so many exist. This was only two of my many in this life.

Risk and Chance are so connected but chance plays a wiser role in this paradox. Think of risk as having nothing to bet on and still going for it, while chance is like having a strong pilot of truth behind you steering your way as you will see in later chapters. I was a major risk taker for many years, and then I saw that chance is God’s way of making sense of things that do not make sense and creating a window out, or another door. Risk however, was like just hanging in the point of never knowing, and thinking in some really obscure way that you were free when in reality you hung in that illusion.

So in conclusion to more options in life, stay open and you will receive them. I cannot tell you how many times I have failed in so much, but always believed that I was on the right path so I kept on persevering here. Then victory arrived and I received many blessings just by taking another chance at a dream. My message is clear to not give up in anything that you know in your heart 100% intuitively that feels right for you now.