Soul Full of Fire
Born in North Carolina to a well known family during a deep snow on December 24th, 1935, she was forced to live her early life as a male. From this came abuse and torture. Her life was marked with disaster and abuse, psychic phenomena, and near death during those first 18 years.
Abused by her father, cousins and uncles, she managed to make it through high school. The abuse of a cousin turned into a powerful love for her that lasted fifty years. Having found a special love during high school, she went on and graduated with honors. Realizing, however, the futility of their relationship, she lost him to the priesthood.
Her weeping over the tragedy night after night got the attention of her guardian angel. He informed her that she would undergo many tests but would be freed in time. She gathered strength from the angel's visit and continued presence and doubled her efforts to get through college.
But as fate would have it, family breakdown caused her great anguish and she had to get away from it all. She enlisted in the military to the horror of her father.
She managed to fool the examiners and get sworn in. During basic training she was raped, but before too much damage could be done, was rescued by her training instructor. He cleaned her up and soothed her, fell in love with her, and made her training experience bearable.
Too bad, she was ordered to Myrtle Beach AFB. She left with remorse but destiny called. And at Myrtle Beach she found a tremendous love that lasted till after her enlistment was over. In fact, that love has never really ended.
Her talent and charisma got her assigned to Special Services at the time. She became extremely good friends with the tech sergeant who stood by her through thick or thin. But there was a first lieutenant, a pilot, who was placed as Officer in Charge. She became the target of his attention, and though she feared him, he proved to be her greatest admirer and an undying love of her life. It was he who took her to Charleston where she sang for a band and became a star.
The first enlistment ran out, so she had to reenlist, which sent her to the Azores. Even there, the lieutenant, now a captain, visited her several times. He spent two weeks on his leave with her; those were wonderful weeks but he disappeared. Her grief for him never ceases.
Later, in the Azores, she met a guy who was in a band and drove a motorcycle. She was introduced to the band and simultaneously appointed to the Board of Directors for the Airman's Club. Lady Renee was born there and her career sky-rocketed.
After riding all over the island with Juan on his motorcycle, he declares his love for her. He called her his Soul Full of Fire. But his request for a divorce was denied and he became the object of the Base Commander's denouncement. She was alone again.
Actually, she was never really alone. Her contact with a tall, dark and handsome Portuguese soldier led to talk and action and love. He came to love her so intensely. Their romance was treated with disregard by the military so each was sent a different direction.
Billie received some news that nearly drove her crazy. Other developments followed that caused Billie to lose her mind temporarily and caused her family grief.
But she recovered and was sent to Charleston, SC to finish her enlistment. This time she was unable to get her career jumpstarted. Life was a virtual bore till she met a sailor, Tim. Tim and she remained together for nearly two years. However, an investigation was underway in her outfit and she was a possible witness.
Billie's premonitions have in the past all come true. She would lose Tim to alcohol; a high government official would be assassinated and she would be forced out of the military. This was perhaps, the biggest premonition of her life; it was a three part one.
Well, she did lose Tim because of the investigation and as she desired, she was discharged to go back to school. The high official happened to be President Kennedy.
She left Charleston for New York and her freedom. There she met Tommy, who became her very best friend. He saw through her pretense and questioned her about it. Her doctor was also a friend of her, Tommy, her designer friend, and Jason as well as Mark. The doctor saw to her becoming completely free. Jason was her generous benefactor.
Tommy introduced her to a club owner in the Village and Lady Renee came alive again. Jason fell for her the first time he heard her sing. In the meantime, because of extra expenses, Billie sought a roommate, whom she had to expel later for going to Casa Blanca.
After she returned from Casa Blanca, unexpectedly, her ex-roommate shows up at her door and a romance develops that lasted till his family ended it. Gene, a co-worker, came into her life rather brashly and almost destroyed her.
By her 35th birthday and Christmas, she was doing well with good friends and children to share. Tommy presented her with a grand birthday and Christmas present. A party was given in her behalf at the home of their actor friend. At that party, Jason became her manager and her lover and Lady Renee is on her way!
She bears Jason a son and their love is paramount. But Gene would not leave her alone. He raped her causing a serious problem. She became distraught and because Jason was tied to a money-grabbing, power hungry wife, who wouldn't give him a divorce, Billie looked for a full time dad for her son.
She met David, a returning soldier from Viet Nam, and they were married in Kansas. Her marriage to him was stormy from time to time but she tried to be a good wife. While there in Kansas with him, she sang in a local night club. At the club, the lieutenant in charge of David's platoon declares his love for her and remorse, because he can't have her.
In Arkansas, David became unpredictable and perplexing. Still, she muddled through the best she could.
She made a very bad mistake by becoming one of Jehovah's Witnesses. A year after baptism, she found herself inundated by lies and deceit. She was called before a board of opinionated elders who sentenced her to slow death without regard for her welfare or well being. A technicality stood in her way.
For twenty years, she labored under a cursed masquerade just to please God and her obstinate mother. But doctors warned her she would die if she continued the masquerade. The angel told her that her mother was going to die in 1994 that she would again be free. And indeed she was freed.
In 1998 she left the Witnesses and North Carolina. She made a new life, productive and pleasant. She still, however, seeks the final, special love of her life.
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