Dear Diary - Today Dad unexpectedly died. I have so many feelings all at the same time. They are all jumbled up inside. My stomach feels like I am going to be sick. I am trembling and find myself wandering around my home with nowhere to go. I can remember what the doctor told me when we were still at the hospital. Dr. Terry explained why Dad died. He said that one of the valves in his heart stopped working and he died that moment. Dr. Terry said, Breanne, do you understand what it means when someone dies? I told him that it was like sleeping a very deep sleep. Dr. Terry said that death is very different.
After we talked to Mr. Martin, he led us to a room that had lots of different caskets in it. A casket is a special bed that we lay our loved one in after they die. When I saw one, it reminded me of a jewelry box that holds special and beautiful jewels that we want to keep safe and protected.
At the funeral, my family was asked to wait in a room while all of our friends were coming into the chapel. Mr. Martin walked us into the chapel where everyone was sitting. Mom, Donna, and I sat together and held hands. When I looked around, I saw many of our friends . . . some I did not even know. Many people cried because I could hear them. I cried too because I will miss him and love him so much. Once people die, tears or wishing can never bring them back.
As we were leaving, the men who worked at the cemetery lowered the casket into a deep hole into the ground and covered it with dirt. My mom looked at me and said, Your dads body will be in the ground, but his love and memories will live in our hearts.
My sister and I crawled into bed together. Donna asked, Mom, did we do something to cause Dad to die like leaving my bike on the grass? Mom added while tucking us in, No, girls. Death is just a part of life even though it hurts our hearts like this. Over time, the anger, hurt and pain will get better. Good night Diary.
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