The phone was ringing off the hook at Jays house, everybody sending their condolences. Henny was the first one to come over, Precious answered the door, hugging him, telling him Lazahs in the kitchen and Jays in her room. Henny waved to Lazah as he followed the cries to Jays room. The sight of Jay made Henny walk right over, hugging her, telling her if they need anything to let him know, said he was sorry about their loss but he really didnt know what to say. Jay smiled her first smile all night, telling him, me neither. Jay came out her room long enough to eat her soup, Shawns favorite video came on and Jay lost it. Started hitting walls, throwing anything around her. Precious cut off the t.v. and they all held her in one big group hug until Jay snickered, I cant breathe yall, when somebody knocked on the door. Kale came in, walking right over to Jay you all right? How you doing, holding her hands. Im fine, she told him as Candi came through the door, looking drained, saying her hellos, stopping in her tracks at Henny. Long time no see, boy give me a hug, stepping back to look him over. Youre looking good, how long its been since you been around here? Long time, he said, and Im sorry it took something bad to bring me back. But I promise I wont be no stranger. Ill hold you to your word, Candi told him taking off her shoes. You want something to eat mom Candi? Lazah asked, No baby, Im fine, I just want to lay down, she said walking to her room. Jay can I talk to you for a minute alone? Kale asked her. I know youre going through right now but just take it easy for the babys sake. What! Jay yelled, you want me to take it easy for somebody I dont even know when I just lost someone Ive known as long as Ive known me? Get out, get the fuck out now, Jay yelled, opening the door. Everybody was stunned from what they just heard. They stood there, mouths open, as Kale walked out saying I didnt mean it like that, just wanted you to take care of yourself but fuck it, he said slamming the door. Jay was in tears when Candi came out her room, Jay, baby, whats he talking about? Im pregnant mom, she said still crying.
The days and house nights before the funeral were long and hard for Jay. She still hadnt talk to Kale since she put him out. So when she seen him come in the church she felt guilty, she didnt say anything to him, just shook his hand like she didnt even know him. The funeral was sad, it was packed with teenage boys and girls, that made it worse. The choir sang that song, Rest for the Weary that Jay liked. Candi and Jay did as well as to be expected, until it was time to close the casket, they both passed out.
After the funeral their was stacked. Jay left Candi to greet people, she confined herself in her room and wouldnt see anyone after Lazah and Precious left. Jay had still been trying to smoke and had to laugh to herself when it made her sick, I guess I wont be living up to my name no more, she thought when a knock on her door startled her. Go away. No, I cant do that, Kale said coming through the door. I will not leave you alone, walking closer to her, you are carrying my child and whether you like it or not I care about you Jay. No matter how much cuss or put me out, Ill be back. Im sorry, was all Jay said getting up hugging him, besides, Kale laughed I know your hormones are crazy. Whats that I smell, here, Jay said , you can have it, makes me sick, handing Kale the blunt. What, I never thought Id hear you say that. shut up and light it up, I can get a contact.
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