As a child and teenager Susan Fitzgerald read the astrological descriptions of the Scorpio Woman with great excitement. As a Scorpio female, she couldnt wait to be one of the sexiest women on the planet, who would be able to thrill a man both in and out of bed, and hold his fascination of her heart, mind and body. Most exciting of all, she would possess a mystery that no one else would ever fathom. With the moon in Cancer at the time of her birth, she was happy to learn that she would enjoy sharing deep feelings with others. With the moon affecting her highly sensitive emotions, she would be a warm, nurturing mother who would also remain in touch with her own inner child. The ability to retain the innocence of a child would awaken a unique tenderness between her and her children, as well as causing her peers to treat her with tenderness. By sixteen, as she stood naked in front of the bathroom mirror after soaking in a warm, sudsy bath, she thought that she looked okay with her dark brown, thick hair worn in a chin length page boy, her sparkling dark brown eyes, cute little nose and bright smile with even, white teeth. At 115 pounds, 5 6 and with a 34 B chest, 24 waist and 34 hips connected to long well proportioned legs, she felt that she resembled the all American girl. When she was date raped, as a virgin at the age of 19, the course of her development into a sensual, Scorpio woman changed significantly. This event occurred on a Friday night in September of 1967, when she was starting third year at Cornell. She didnt use the term date rape until she was older because in the 1960s girls on campus were always being coerced into having sex. The date itself held such great promise. During the process of moving into the first floor of a large Victorian house with her best friend, she met a heavenly young man who lived next door. He had short, curly, sandy brown hair, bright blue, mischievous eyes, and stood 5 10 with a very muscular build. Susan was captivated by his winning smile, ice blue eyes and the way he moved in a fluid, confident manner. He was the most exciting man she had ever seen at Cornell. When he invited her to dinner with six other friends of his, three classmates and their dates, she was thrilled. They really had fun at dinner, she got a kick out of watching him cook, and thought how clever he was as he strained the pasta with his tennis racquet. In the atmosphere of good friends enjoying one anothers company, she drank too much and fell asleep sitting up on his love seat. When she awoke, the others had gone and she was alone with him. They started kissing and petting and doing all of the things a good middle class virgin does with boys who respect her. When his hand went below her belt her inebriated brain thought, This is pleasant, but Id better get out of here. Instead, he persuaded her to stagger into his bedroom. Since she was awfully tired and dizzy, she thought it would be okay to lie down on his bed. From the age of sixteen, when she had left home to go to school in Europe, shed fallen asleep with many fine boys who never presumed that their lying together meant that they would have sex, since they mutually respected each other. She was about to curl up and fall asleep with her host when he shifted into high gear. He had her skirt up, panties off and penis thrusting apart her labia in 10 seconds. She begged him not to go any farther. As his pulsating member rammed its way into her panic stricken vagina, she kept writhing against his muscular body and pleading for him to back off. Even in her semi comatose state, the specter of losing her prized virginity in this way was truly terrifying. Her date was not going to be denied his conquest and informed her, Listen baby, at the age of 19 you need to be freed of your precious virginity. Now, lie back and relax. Im not going to hurt you, itll just be a bit uncomfortable since this is the first time youve had sex. That said, he went ahead to puncture her hymen, hump her, ejaculate and pull out in three minutes flat. Susan fumbled off the bed; gazed at her blood on the sheet and sadly thought, Well, I guess Im a woman now, no longer a girl. Her attacker just lay sated on the bed and watched as she struggled into her panties, pulled down her skirt and slipped into her sandals. She rushed out of his bedroom without saying a word. The loss of her virginity under such traumatic and unexpected circumstances caused her to sober up in a hurry. As she rushed home she prayed that she wasnt pregnant. She let herself into the house, went to the bathroom and watched as her dates semen plopped into the toilet with her urine. Having decided to be a virgin until she was married, Susan did not know a lot about sex. She was planning to make this discovery with her husband and have him gently explain then show her how coupling worked. She had been under a total misconception of how babies were made until the age of 16 when her best friend explained the process. As she sat on the toilet, she slowly shook her head back and forth remembering that day when Janet Eisen was stunned by her ignorance.
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