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After age 15, Im old enough to have an occasional beer with Dad and Mom and here is another love/hate feeling cropping up inside me. My Dads drinking is causing much chaos in the family system and Mom is crying more than usual over this. I have a bottle of Grain Belt beer, as an adult would do. During the holidays, Mom and Dad have a hot toddy (which was brandy and hot water) once in a while. This year, Im asked if I would like one and I accept. It is Sunday afternoon and I have two hot toddies and Im feeling my first buzz. At four oclock I must go to the barn and do chores before the milking and I am feeling GOOD! The cows look GOOD! The world is GOOD! I have made a connection with life. It was my first spiritual experience from God! I had no idea there was such a feeling like this on the planet. I loved everything in the barn and I didnt care if anybody helped me or not. I was willing to stay there all night. I was smiling and grinning inside and outside my body. I had found bliss and happiness. There was a switch inside my mind that saw the world from a whole new vantage point. I was free. I floated. I could be ME and the elixir of life was mine from this day forward.
Naturally, four hours after milking, things were starting to wear off. The next morning I was back to normal and heading back to school BUT I knew from then on where to go and what to do to find happiness and peace of mind. This was the beginning This was the end. Life would drastically change forever here on in.
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