THE BREATH OF LIFE--AM I HUMAN OR DIVINE? Larry Alan Weaver
Self Consciousness - Smiles
I thought That! Looking in the mirror To say my affirmations And forgive people Would make me More self-conscious Than I already was Breathe I know now That my self consciousness problems Came from criticism From other people Their judgements of me Especially when I was still a baby If I smiled at an adult And they smiled back Or vice versa I would have felt Loved and secure If there was no returned smile Or worse ~! A disapproving look! I would have felt insecure Unloved! Maybe ~ That was the beginning of My self consciousness Without these early Childhood comparisons How would I ever have known? That I was insecure? Breathe This insecurity grew As I grew physically And I started to get Verbal feedback To my words And actions And my smiles The critical kind That I know all too well! Then ~ I started to clam up Bow my head And not look at people Shyness Was another word for it And ~ Not bother to smile At all Because ~ I really thought There was something Grossly wrong with my smile! I still judge my smile When I look at it in the mirror It is easier for me to understand That my smile is beautiful When I look at someone else and smile And they in turn smile back And I see how beautiful Their smile is! That is a mirror of mine It just says "I accept you" "Smile and the whole world smiles with you. Frown and you frown alone!" Breathe People are living on this earth For the sole purpose To find happiness, fun and laughter Let's not spend Or Waste any of this precious time Frowning! Remember when The pictures were taken? And everyone on cue Was to say "Cheese" Some pictures later Did look just like cheesy smiles! Why? (For me, anyway) Does it seem like? Smiling is work! Breathe Try taking a deep breath Before you smile Actually Don't even think about it! Just take a breath Open your mouth when you do Then try smiling! See how much easier it is? Now ~! Hold your breath And keep your lips closed And see if You can smile! Darn near impossible! Because ~ Isn't a smile? Just the reflection of Life energy? Which is: Light And love And happiness So ~ Self consciousness Seems to me then To be Awareness of Our lack of happiness! Breathe Our lack of breath! A frown Seems like a reflection of that state A real reflection of fear! So ~ God help me Let me breathe Let me fill my lungs With pure life energy So that ~ My whole body Is smiling! Thank you Breath
Learning - Growing Up
I think If I had remained As a newborn I could have been happy! It is this business of Thinking and believing That has caused All my problems! Yes! As a baby I even knew how to breathe! I didn't need to take Lessons on how to breathe properly! Or How to cry Or Smile Or Laugh Even though - When I was born My practice time Was zero! (Ever wonder how a baby horse can get up and start walking in less than an hour after it is born?) Breathe You know? I wasn't even afraid of anything! My crying at that time Just let you know of my primal needs! That's it! (You thought the needs were for something to eat and that is true, but also I was telling you that I needed some touch as well) What bliss! As a grown-up I seek that same bliss In many, many, different ways In fact Are we not? Living our whole lives In search of That same bliss and satisfaction That we had as babies? Breathe God must have planned it That way And then Planted the key Right inside our hearts So that ~! All this bliss and happiness Is available to all people Breathe So ~ This happiness that my adult Sees Seems to be conditional I.e. it is dependent upon If You are: Christian Heterosexual Rich White Educated Sports minded Socially acceptable Born to the right family Living in the right place Related to the right people Know the right people Married to Miss Universe/Charles Atlas Free! Then you can be happy! B - b - b -u -u - t -t! When I was born I didn't have any of these conditions In place! Really! What I didn't have I didn't have my mind developed enough To Think and believe in various beliefs Breathe Breathe Breathe like a baby! Think like a baby! If you breathe like one You are going to think like one! Because ~ The breath is The bridge between The divine and the human It is the spirit of us The human cannot exist without it Divinity exists forever without it! So ~ Before our brain developed We were just little Breathing bodies We were quite happy Thank you! Breathe It was when we started to grow And we took on More and more humanness More awareness That we were human Then we started to develop Our emotions Like anger and? More anger and? Well ~ That's about all we developed Because Happiness was already A part of us It didn't have to be developed It just was! This anger really made us feel powerful Shucks! Just crying we could move the whole neighborhood To listen to us! When they did listen We felt so powerful From so much attention That we thought This anger was useful then In finding our happiness It duped us Into thinking that If it worked for this kind of attention Then it would work For obtaining peace as well! Breathe Go back to the simple Breathing In and out In and out Say the word "Love" When you breathe in and out Breathe into that part of your body That feels in need of this total Love and acceptance Your body is just water anyway! That has solidified to form a vessel In which your soul May reside! You may think you are this solidified water But ~ Sorry! You and I are not We are souls only Souls cannot be seen With the human eye When you breathe You will feel lighter And also know That you are not a body Because ~ A body is so heavy Breathe And feel the spirit Let go of the human thought That you are arrogant To even believe That you are divine! It seems like we are divided! It's okay for the human to think That it is human But it is not okay for the divine To think that it is divine! What's happening is: When the divine thinks it is divine The human gets in on the thinking And judges itself arrogant For even thinking that the human is divine! Don't get mixed up! They are two separate entities! The human thinks in terms of Ownership Comparison And therefore Because of this illusion Can get jealous Because It (our humanity) Loses out on the praise and credit Breathe Whereas
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