I battled with myself over the Caroline thing. I wanted to say something, but I didn’t know if I should. But, I figured I may as well let him know about it. Bring it right out in the open. “Dad,” I said, my voice low and unsure, “I know about Caroline.” I thought he’d turn around fast and look angry. But, he didn’t. He just kept staring out the window for what seemed like a long time, then, he turned towards me. “I should have told you years ago,” he said slowly, “but, I never quite had the courage.” He paused, swallowing hard. “I’m a coward, Spencer. I know that, and somehow, I have to face the truth sooner or later.” His voice broke. “I don’t know if I can do it.” This shocked me. I never heard Dad talk like that before! Dad can do anything! He never has big problems that he can’t solve. It felt like the whole room stood still. The silence made me feel very uneasy. I’ll never forget what happened next. Here I was looking at Dad telling me he was a coward, and tears were streaming down his face! Dad was crying! I couldn’t believe it! I didn’t know what to do. Then, I don’t know how I did it, but all of a sudden, I had my arms around him. We never said another word.
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