At forty, I was a widow raising four children, a first time college student in my third marriage, and facing diagnosis of mental illness for a son and a daughter who eventually commits suicide. I confront my childhood memories from a dysfunctional family, and discover family secrets and a genetic disposition to alcoholism and mental illness. Following the death of another spouse, I remarry but have to let go of my mentally ill son. My story is for all who face the unexpected, unplanned, and challenges in life. This is my family story, skeletons from my closet.